My Boyfriend wants to Share me with his Friends

Hello,

Hello, I'm kind of embarrassed to talk to anybody I actually know about this so figured I'd post anonymously here. My bf and I have been together about 4 months now and recently went to his friends house last month to hang out for the evening. We had a few drinks and started playing beer pong and were all talking a little trash while we played.

My bf said we should make things more interesting if I was so confident and said anytime I lost I'd have to take off clothing of his choice. I honestly didn't think he was serious and still talking trash until I lost and he said to take off my shirt.

All his friends turned and were staring at me. I didn't know if I was really supposed to or what. He started calling me a chicken amongst other things and his friends laughed which made me a little mad so I went ahead and took my shirt off. I figured that would be the end of it but we started playing again.

I lost again and he asked his friends what I should take off next! They said her / my shorts. Again I was hesitant but they were all staring at me like they were waiting so I started unbuttoning them slowly seeing if my bf was going to stop me.

He NEVER did.

Long story short my team won the next game and he asked what I wanted him and the team we beat to take off so I said their shirts. I figured we were all drinking just having fun and even by some chance if it went so far as me getting naked in front of them that would be that and would then get dressed and that would be that.

Well long story short I did end up naked and he said if I lost again I'd have to jerk off the winners. Now I was really confused why he would want to even risk that happening. I lost and he said I had to jerk them off (him and his friend on the team I was playing against). I was naked which I think contributed to all his friends having boners at this point.

I knew if I did this it probably wouldn't stop with just jerking them off plus his other 2 friends were staring at me and already saying no fair they want a turn to play against me next round of beer pong! My bf didnt say anytjing and asked what I was waiting for!?!

I said I'm not doing that and started to grab my clothes to get dressed as I was completely naked now. He said no you can't do that you lost fair and square and all this stuff. I asked if he really wanted me to do this and he said yes they won fair and square and a bet's a bet and his friends all started saying yup he's right and all this stuff.

Sorry I didn't mean to drag this on forever so long story short I did jerk them off and ended up giving all 4 of them oral sex and they all touched me and fingered me and I had sex with my bf and 2 of his 3 friends there. Something similar happened the following weekend. Now everytime his friends come over they make comments like oh how good I am with my mouth or say their gf isn't as good as me in bed and all kinds of stuff.

My bf doesnt stop them. We havent really talked about it and idk I just feel like he looks at me different now. Anytime his friends come over now if I'm not already wearing something sexy or revealing he asks me to put something revealing on.

I wonder if any guys had their gf do something like this here? It's not like they forced me and I know this is bad but the sex was actually really good and my bf will say things like oh I know u like it, I never saw you orgasm so much as you have those nights etc...

I don't know how to feel or what to even say to this and I'm worried that now he will want to or think he can have sex with other girls. I know at this point that would probably only be fair but I do not want him to AT ALL. Plus I'm friends with 1 of his friend's girlfriends so feel horrible about letting him have sex with me and it's happened twice now.

Any and all input would be greatly appreciated and I can't say anything about this to any of my friends as I don't want their girlfriends to find out about this and I wouldn't want to tell them and have them look at me different like I feel my bf now does.

Again, I choose to participate as I find it really sexy and want to do it again, I'm just having some confusing moments and feel he gets off on me doing it like a cuckold would. Nothing wrong with that as that's something i find sexy too.

BF is also much more sexual now as he always wants to have sex with me. Even when we go somewhere he wants me to dress super revealing like idk wear a skirt with no panties on.

Shirts that show alot of my boobs and no bra. He wasn't ever like that until this all happened and I love it.

Lexxy